God spoke..

Hello everybody! I hope you guys are all holding up fine with your walk with Christ.
       So anyways today, I want to talk about my most crazy experience with God today. It was the most amazing thing that happened and it just makes me happy that I was able to experience it.
    To begin now with the story well for weeks I have been struggling with personal problems and where ever I went, it always reminded me of my problems. One problem just kept branching out like a tree and it just kept building up and I just couldn't take it anymore. My regrets and pain that I have kept inside me was too much for me to handle. It was everywhere and I'm always constantly reminded of my regrets as I thought my day was good, but then the next thing you know your day gets ruined by some video or something. Everything were just bad thoughts as I wanted to stop being so humble and wanted people to recognize me. I wanted to just explode and I didn't want to be so nice anymore. I was pissed on how people just took granted of me and my personality to love everyone. I wanted to stop trying to love everyone and just become the person I used to be.
     After that, I went to bed really depressed the only thoughts that came to my mind were all the bad memories, regrets & the struggles I was constantly having for the past few months. The problems I tried to ignore all came back to me and decided it was too much for me to handle. Then I just decided to listen to Christian songs and prayed. As I prayed I kind of teared up and just kept asking God to help me, that I wanted Him to carry me back up. I prayed everything that came to my mind and let everything out to Him. I then asked for him to speak to me. And then after I finished praying I decided to wait to see if He would actually speak to me but at the same time my thoughts were all over the place as I tried to think of the people around the world how they are struggling a lot more than I am. That just lead to me thinking how they dealt with it. As I was thinking how I was going to deal with these problems of my own I had my first thought of suicide & literally pictured myself with a knife to my stomach. I asked myself why I thought about this. I wanted to see how people at my school and everyone would be if they saw that the "Nice, Loving, Funny" Jimmy committed suicide. Would they actually miss me? Would they actually care and realize they took me for granted? I was so puzzled and confused as why I would think of something like this when I just prayed like 10 minutes ago. My thoughts couldn't stop and I was moving around in my bed for a very long time just listening to music to stop these thoughts. I wanted to wait for God to speak to me and decided maybe next time so I turned off my Ipod and decided to try to sleep. After a few hours or something trying to sleep all of a sudden I heard God spoke to me literally. He said 2 words, "Be strong" and from this my body literally felt something so indescribable. I was lost for words and amazed on how powerful his words were to me. I felt the holy spirit just literally flowing through my body and it was so comforting. It was such a indescribable feeling of happiness. From this my thoughts literally were gone and I somehow fell asleep. It might have been a dream, but I don't think it was a dream. It felt so real and when I woke up this was the first thing I actually remembered, God speaking to me. From this I realized how awesome God really is. Just from 2 words from Him I was comforted so easily and His presence just lifted me up from so many problems I was struggling with. As I felt this indescribably feeling of joy I thought about it after I woke up, if this experience was amazing, how would heaven feel like?